A week before my 18th birthday my mom asked me what am I going to do on my birthday? I told her not to worry about that since I know how much penny they spent on the last few months of my dad’s medication. But my mom insisted and she said “ I want my daughter to be happy and thats one of my objective as your mother”.. my eyes got teary. I told her “ thanks ma, you’re the greatest mom ever. "
I still decided not to have a party because hmmm.. lets just say besides that I’m not in the mood to have one and it would really be impossible since I have a very hectic schedule throughout the week. I had a ”wise bargain” with my mom she asked me if I’ll go for the gift I was asking few weeks before my birthday and I come to think of it that it isn’t bad after all. Though its quite expensive, its all worth since its really a must on my daily routine. Im thankful now, I may not have the party that almost all of my friend’s did atleast now I have this “gift” that made my life easier with regards to my work loads at school and all of my other commitments. I’ll be happy w/ this more than a night. Lolz
On the night of the 15th, while lying on the bed I told myself, I guess tomorrow would be one of another sad moment in my life. I thought of the people that ive missed so much and I want to be with tomorrow—IMPOSSIBLE. Oh well,, that’s life we always don’t get what we want. Tears fell on my eyes I pray and another side of me whispered “everything will be okay” til such time I fell asleep.
I wake up! It’s a quarter before 6 o’clock. Today is my day! My mom was the first person who greeted me. She gave me the warmest hug. As she hugged me, she whispered “ happy birthday men.. mama loves you so much” .. I never said a thing, I slowly walked on my room (since upto now I still sleep on my mom and dad’s room). I locked the door, i seated on the floor and I cried. I thank God that im blessed of having a mother like my mom. I felt like she doesn’t deserve a daughter like me. I felt so sorry for all the pains, the lies, and headaches I brought to her.
My “as usual” routine every Friday follows, I failed to attend my first subject, my euthenics class from 8-9am because of entertaining text messages and phone calls and that I forgot the time. Every Friday is my “relaxed day” my classes are only from 8-11 and im free the rest of the day.
I invited my friends out for lunch. I also received gifts from them.=) after havin our lunch out together, a friend suggested if we could roam-around in people center since the opening was 3 days ago. Maybe we could window shop there. As we stepped there, its as if they all left me. Because of some more important and emergency matter they needed to attend to. They apologize and bid goodbye. “oh my God” I whispered. Im alone. I wanted to cry. I was carrying a huge shoulder bag w/ my school stuffs inside. And on my other hand I was holding all the gifts that my friends have given me. “what am I going to do now? Im all alone” searching any contacts on my cellphone, I was walking around the people center without direction. to make it worse, no one replied. I felt really bad. So bad. It seems that on my vision everything is colorless. I didn’t appreciate anything there. After a while, I decided to go home. When I started walking at the exit gate, my cell phone rings. It was janna on the caller id. I hesitated to answer because I still felt so bad. Ive tried to reach her earlier and its as if she was rejecting my call. I thought maybe she has “reasonable exlpanation”. I decided to answer her call. “ hi maine, happy birthday” that’s her first line. “ walk a little from the right and look straightly” and busy tone follows. There they are, janna and juwky laughing and waving their hands. I walked hurriedly and when I saw them already I wanted to cry. I didn’t have any idea what was happening around they all have a meaningful look. The three of us went to the parking lot of cindy’s real. Juwky opened the door of his black car for me. Janna sitted on the back seat and juwky on the driver’s seat. When all of us were aboard, I told them “ wait! paused! Whats going on guys? Im clueless. I’ll tell you its effective. You really made me feel bad.” Im almost frowning because my emotions are mixed. Janna's sweet voice follows “ relax maine,close your eyes and open it after 20 minutes, lets go bro”. janna was joking. I looked at juwky and he just smiled as he started to put the key on the car’s engine . while I shut my mouth. I didn’t say a word. To make them feel that I was not enjoying the flow anymore. We were all in silence. Janna's cell phone kept on ringing. And juwky is singing along the beat of his car stereo. We were on the way to the private beach house of our other friend. Its somewhere in san jose and as we entered the gate of the beach house. I saw all the smiling faces of all the special people closed to me. Once again, I wanted to cry. Im touched. I felt like, im no better person to deserve such kind of happiness. I pray and thank HIM for all the blessing on my 18th birthday.
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