early morning =)

here i am again.. i actually got so many things to study.. i have an exam at 8 am this morning and i was supposed to glance over my books and notes then here i am blogging..=) crazy germaine..=) i am on my room now.. cold and silent. its 3 in the morning.. during this time alot of thoughts are poping up on my mind.

at this point in my life , i have so many things i want do and when i am almost getting what i want there's a part of me that whispers "you wouldnt be happy with that if youll have it already" and of course, i intend to change plans and do something different again.. well,, this is really me.. unpredictable. so many things i want to do so many dreams i want to achieve and yet i couldnt stick to it for so long.. hahha its as if "nakaka-sawa gusto ko iba na naman" thats always the thought i live by..=) really crazy.. =p

sometimes, no matter how you try to enjoy life, it will simply attack you out from nowhere. just like the previous days, here i go again.... in pain and hoping endlessly .... there is this guy who loves me deeply, and im afraid to share a part of me to anybody.... i might not come along and hold his hand til we get old.
All have of us have an ultimate dream and i must admit i have a bagful of dreams in mind. But as i grew older, my long list is cut short. Just about from 101 to 100 nlng!!! aheheh.. We just learn to know our priorities and sorting has been one of my best skill.One of my ultimate dream finally happend and i am really thankful. God is really great in so many ways. Opportunities knocked at my door and i grabbed it and whoa!!!!! Another booster for my == self-esteem!!! oh yes!!!!I'm back on track. and i'm taking my life back.... no one can let me down this time. It's a great year-starter!!! =)

oh by the way, my sister who resides in singapore just called me up.. shez in NAIA already and will be arriving home anytime.. its gonna be a big surprise to mom an dad..=)