Friday night..=(

I found everything demanding and harsh. Maybe because I am a newbie and I still am trying to learn how to adjust with jukie’s situation . Anyway, I am looking very haggard now. I was not able to sleep for days. I do sleep but 4 hours was the longest. Imagine that. now,, im tempted to take a sleeping pills..=( And one night I didn't sleep because I am overthinking things but I still was able to have a strong faith with the Lord, Almighty..Suicide is what I am doing now. I do still eat a lot of food but four hours of sleep or no sleep at all wasn't enough. I am tired and I feel very exhausted specially in class. I always feels asleep and I can't help it. I once slept in my desk because I can't help myself anymore.I'm starting to feel dizzy; maybe I'm getting anemic due to my lack of sleep diet..=(