brain-storming

I'm not sure if letting the world into my mind and thoughts is a good idea or if it will a help at all but maybe the fact that I'm subconsciously aware that people maybe reading this could help me talk openly and honestly. when I think about all those things I want to say to people or even get things sorted out in my head I find I run round in circles and not get anywhere, it's so frustrating. If anyone does end up reading this then you are most likely not to understand any of it. Or maybe you will. Do you ever get that feeling where you believe your the only one in the world who thinks the way you do or feels the way you do, and that no-one will ever understand what your going through, no matter how significant it may be? At the end of the day, yes, there are people out there so much worse of than me and even those of you reading this but at the time of your low and depressant times you feel you should be the only important one there and then and you feel frustrated that you can not express what your feeling, you feel unable to speak the words. How can one average individual like myself just a working class young woman be feeling all these things at one time. Almost everyone I know can speak so openly about there thoughts and feeling. So why can't I? Will i ever be able to?? Who knows!

So i shall be leaving it there and trying to keep this blog upto date.Everyday I will be added about my day my thoughts my feelings, this may sound boring upto now but i'm hoping whatever i end up writing and comments i get back can help me through what I am now! i Can't tell you now what it is because I don't understand any of it myself, so this is a new thing for me to try, a test if you like! anyway, wish me luck! x S x