Time-check.. its 10:45pm..supposedly,, I’m dreaming by this time.. yet,, I couldn’t sleep..=( I don’t exactly know why. They say that it happens when you have too much in your head, your mind won’t rest and so your body. Or it can be that your mind simply wouldn’t go to cease, even if your body already has. I have been absolutely mind blown for the last few weeks or so.. im missing someone terribly right now...i just cant be so emotional in front of my friends and family… hmmm(just want to avoid Q&A portion..yeah that is..) It’s a night when I feel like conviction has managed to take over me, to look back, assess and change.
Well my life has been thrown for some serious loops lately. If you would have described the me now to the me 4 or 5 months ago I would have never believed you...take if back even further to a year or two ago and I would have burst out laughing. can't believe how much I've changed since I've get my self out of that “unhealthy commitment”.. I have a gift for choosing people that are wrong for me... haha, I think most people have that gift..=p I am not sourgraping, besides, no reason for me to do that… I am not trying to point out someone.. this is just all honesty,.. I've become so many different people to end up who I am now. My first few months of moving on put me with really weird situations lolz. I had no idea what my life’s going to be after it and when I got there it all seemed strange… I never thought that in just a single snip of our fingers,, cheddaaann,, things are running different.
But more importantly, I thank God for not letting me completely fall to that guy because I deserve a guy who truly, genuinely cares for me,.and a guy I cant trust. A guy who will loves everything about me… and I have found that person.. just need lil patience prayerfully, someday I know we will be happy again like we used to be a month ago.I think I'm finally getting back... After the turmoil, I feel this sudden peace. And I yawn. A well-deserved, all-out yawn. I’m ready to sleep..=) goodnyt…=)
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