yeah.. true though.. but its really hard.. believe me.. me and his mom, tita carmy talked 2 days ago… it was somewhat very serious and emotional conversation.. she told me the real situation of jukie.. and it broke my heart. =( I never thought it was that serious. I’ve been very positive regarding his health condition… but now, knowing the truth broke my heart into pieces so small…. Wheew!! Another challenge to me. I battled with depression again.. but hey! That’s life! …. Yeah.
Tita carmy wants me to be free. And that I shouldn’t be miserable. She wants me to be happy because I still have a beautiful life to look forward to. She doesn’t wants me to be chained into something w/o assurance. She was crying really hard and I was crying too.. she said she knew how much jukie loves me and he’ll do everything to make stay and it pained her for telling me all those,, its as if she’s pushing me away. She felt guilty but on the other hand, I perfectly understand her.. tita carmy is a beautiful person in and out and I know she did that because she cares for me..and she wants me to be happy and she thinks it’s the best way to do…and I should respect her for that…Jukie’s rehabilitation takes time and there was no assurance that everything will get back to normal.. it’s so hard to believe but that’s the reality. And I should accept that and look at the brighter side.. yeah.. Easier said than done.. haaaaaaaaaysss.. wait! I thought writing here whats on my heart and mind will lessen the burden I am feeling right now but it isn’t happening…I think I should stop writing now.. I cant take this anymore.. T-T (.. to be continued some other time just not now..)
Tita carmy wants me to be free. And that I shouldn’t be miserable. She wants me to be happy because I still have a beautiful life to look forward to. She doesn’t wants me to be chained into something w/o assurance. She was crying really hard and I was crying too.. she said she knew how much jukie loves me and he’ll do everything to make stay and it pained her for telling me all those,, its as if she’s pushing me away. She felt guilty but on the other hand, I perfectly understand her.. tita carmy is a beautiful person in and out and I know she did that because she cares for me..and she wants me to be happy and she thinks it’s the best way to do…and I should respect her for that…Jukie’s rehabilitation takes time and there was no assurance that everything will get back to normal.. it’s so hard to believe but that’s the reality. And I should accept that and look at the brighter side.. yeah.. Easier said than done.. haaaaaaaaaysss.. wait! I thought writing here whats on my heart and mind will lessen the burden I am feeling right now but it isn’t happening…I think I should stop writing now.. I cant take this anymore.. T-T (.. to be continued some other time just not now..)
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