weee! confused (again..)

Right now, i just feel like i can't go on, that the whole world is running against me.. he is in pain,and i pity him.. its as if my heart had been ripped. I try so hard to be strong, but i can only do so less. Life would have been so different for me. Through and through i keep telling myself i've made the right decisions. Then, in retrospect, i look back and almost regret those decisions. What would life be like? That was supposed to be me. No one would really know that i get upset about these things, not anyone. I don't let my weak side show to many people.

Love almost always leads to heartache and i don't want to have to deal with that in this lifetime again. Maybe later on in the future if things keep going well, i could eventually let my guard down.

hey hey! i should stop writing now.. i am exhausted again and i dont actually think well before i wrote it down here i understand if you're confused with what i am talking about because i myself was confuse too.. T-T