So, how did I get closer to this 'word' and what it covers?
It takes a mistake to realize you are flawed... and that's how it happens to me. I became flawed not once,
either twice but quite a few times. When I became flawed, I realize I have no right to say anything...Just yesterday night, a small conversation turns into something that relates to my past.
A friend of mine was sort of infatuated with a man... that turns out he has a girlfriend.
But she did admit she likes him a lot... hence it isn't going anywhere between the two.
sHe ask an advice in the room what she should do. I say... forget about him. But someone else said should remain friends. I said it's hard to remain friends when your feelings can't do it... because Ive been there. I became an emotional mess that takes some time to be back on my feet... The other person said no, should remain friends and the argument continues until not sure how long and I realize something on my part that is at fault - I let my own personal opinion into it and fought hard in what I believe in... that I relate myself to my friend that she should follow what I do in my own principle that based on my experience should do. What a predicament that I realize now... this is a mistake. I realize I am flawed... I ended with such an embarrassment that I quickly leave. I am sure they think I am angry or mad. Well... usually they do think that way. I am not sure how it goes later so I didn't want to know either.Life can be so... such a mess when you make it that way... and when a certain past come into your life... that's when your mind is clouded... your decisions you make can be wrong... and you can't see things clearly...That is what happen to me... I am pretty strong headed at times... but it takes a small while to break down and then... just remind myself not to do it again but surely... I will again...Sigh... but being flawed... is what makes us human... I am human still... which is good... and I do need a slap sometimes... which I doubt anyone dare to do it to me... because I look too damn fierce... hahahahaOh well... passing on...xoxo
either twice but quite a few times. When I became flawed, I realize I have no right to say anything...Just yesterday night, a small conversation turns into something that relates to my past.
A friend of mine was sort of infatuated with a man... that turns out he has a girlfriend.
But she did admit she likes him a lot... hence it isn't going anywhere between the two.
sHe ask an advice in the room what she should do. I say... forget about him. But someone else said should remain friends. I said it's hard to remain friends when your feelings can't do it... because Ive been there. I became an emotional mess that takes some time to be back on my feet... The other person said no, should remain friends and the argument continues until not sure how long and I realize something on my part that is at fault - I let my own personal opinion into it and fought hard in what I believe in... that I relate myself to my friend that she should follow what I do in my own principle that based on my experience should do. What a predicament that I realize now... this is a mistake. I realize I am flawed... I ended with such an embarrassment that I quickly leave. I am sure they think I am angry or mad. Well... usually they do think that way. I am not sure how it goes later so I didn't want to know either.Life can be so... such a mess when you make it that way... and when a certain past come into your life... that's when your mind is clouded... your decisions you make can be wrong... and you can't see things clearly...That is what happen to me... I am pretty strong headed at times... but it takes a small while to break down and then... just remind myself not to do it again but surely... I will again...Sigh... but being flawed... is what makes us human... I am human still... which is good... and I do need a slap sometimes... which I doubt anyone dare to do it to me... because I look too damn fierce... hahahahaOh well... passing on...xoxo
see yah later! =)
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